Lama Lena first guides us on how to use the Six Paramitas as our roadmap for daily practice. She then reads from The Heart Sutra, showing that it is, in essence, a Dzogchen text.
Lastly, she turns to The 3 Words of Garab Dorje, with the short text “A Special Teaching of the Wise and Glorious King” by Patrul Rinpoche, as always, illuminating the text with her wisdom and insight.
Table of Contents
Texts Quoted During this Teaching:
- Heart Sutra
- Special Teaching of the Wise and Glorious King (translation is slightly different)
Part 1 - Transcription
As requested, these teachings are Dzgochen. Some of you I have been working with in the past, in Mahamudra, Chagchen teachings. Some of you in Dzogchen teachings, Maha Ati, and some of you are quite new and I have not worked with for that long in the past. So, don’t those of you who’ve been around a while be going and thinking “oh I had that text before. Already heard it. Not interested. Gimme a NEW bit. Gimme something new”. Except for you Tibetans who – we’ve got only one Tibetan – who’ll be quite happy to hear an old thing.
It’s a cultural difference. We like the new stuff so much in the West. But I will tell you honestly, it took over a 1000 hearings before it made sense to me. I traveled with my teacher as a translator doing simultaneous translation for 20 or 30 years all over the world; and he taught Dzogchen. And, I translated Dzogchen. But, I didn’t get Dzogchen. I finally gave up. “I’m not gonna get this. So all I’m going to do is work on my language and translating it to the best of my ability and maybe somebody’ll get it.” That worked. And it wasn’t on purpose. Something I realized from that experience: grabbing it don’t work!
How many of you are chasing enlightenment? If you chase it, it’s gonna run! The paramitas, the 6 paramitas, are a really, really good map. The paramita of generosity. Generosity of body is the simplest maybe it’s just give away stuff.Everybody’s got extra stuff. Pass it on. In fact, Onalayah, that roll of cotton?
O: Right at the end by the door
LL: Would somebody hold it up? Pick it up? Can we have it? Pass it up this way. Each of you who are making butter lamps, take out the wad you need as it comes your way. This is my offering to all of you today. Butter lamp wick cotton. There’s always an opportunity to do that; it’s the easiest one. Generosity of speech is harder. Generosity of mind is the big thing. And the hardest. Wish well to those who trouble you and irritate you. That’s hard. And yet that’s generosity of mind. Without being foolish in your actions and behavior — such as leaving your valuables lying around somewhere — nonetheless assume the best of others.
Can you find the balance here? Don’t be stupid and sabotage yourself in thinking the best of others by setting them up to do something bad. That’s not kind. An iPhone sitting around somewhere? Yeah you won’t see it again. If you follow the map in your practice of sutra, tantra, and Dzogchen, the map of the Six Paramitas – which I am not going to teach in depth at this time. I will at other times, and in fact I think there may be some in-depth teachings online by me. And there are many in-depth teachings on line by others. But, use that as your “How To Practice” guideline. Practice generously. Practice morally. Practice patiently; don’t get upset if you didn’t get it yet. “It’s not working!” Well you’ve been at it for two days. Years guys, years. Practice with perseverance. Practice by meditating. Allow wisdom to naturally arise without faking it too soon. You know that one we do, “I got it! I got it!” It goes with the other one. I accept emails from my students, you know what the most commonest question boils down to? “Mom are we there yet?”
[laughter]Some of you I have taught separately one of the Dzogchen ngondros which is the inner mind rushen – Nang sem Rushen, from the text Yeshe Lama. If you have been doing that, it will make the rest of this go in more easily. If you have not, we will do a little bit as part of the teaching. It’s an important practice.
[To a student] You have been doing it, I sure hope. I taught it to ya.Student: Yeah, but I wanted guidance today so that was my question.
LL: It’ll come up.
Dzogchen is not based on the historical Buddha, Guru Shakyamuni, alone. As Guru Shakyamuni himself has said, our entire universe is nothing but the grain, is nothing but a single pollen grain on the stem of a lotus flower held by another Buddha in a greater, bigger universe. This is the dimension of big and small. Throughout time (which is infinite) and space within this universe (which is infinite), there have been thousands upon thousands of Buddhas. And regardless of the teaching style which will fit the species and culture being taught, every teaching points directly to completion stage, which is Dzogchen. There remains Dzogchen from the Bön, a single lineage still alive. It was again taught by the buddha in the form of the heart sutra. This is Dzogchen. Many people who do not understand the pointing of the heart sutra, instead recite it at length again and again. This is helpful. Keeps it from being forgotten; but, to look at where it points, is important. This is lineage, which is really important for you to understand – how this comes from the buddha, before the buddha, exists in other buddhas — Dzogchen is not located in a particular time or a particular place. It is beyond time and space. It is completion stage. It is inherent in all sentient beings. It is simply pointing this out. But lineage is important, for if there is no lineage, there’s nobody to tell you about it.
The Buddha himself in teaching the Heart Sutra, did not actually utter the words.
“Thus did I hear at one time: The Bhagavan was sitting at the Mass of Vultures Mountain in Rajagriha together with a great community of monks and a great community of bodhisattvas. At that time, the Bhagavan was absorbed in the concentration on the categories of phenomena called “Profound Perception.”
He was resting in open awareness of Dzogchen. You can name it lots of things. I have occasionally referred to it as George. It doesn’t change it in the least. You can call me George, and I’m still here just like I was.
At that time, the bodhisattva mahasattva arya Avalokiteshvara looked upon the very practice of the profound perfection of wisdom and beheld those five aggregates also as empty of inherent nature.
Then, through the power of Buddha, (through the power of the pattern, through the power of dzogchen, the power of karma, the power of the 4 times… there’s many levels of explaining this) the venerable Shariputra (who’s very useful for asking questions, because he was like that) said this to the bodhisattva mahasattva arya Avalokiteshvara: “How should any son (or daughter) of the lineage train who wishes to practice the activity of the profound perfection of wisdom?”
He said that and the bodhisattva mahasattva arya Avalokiteshvara said this to the venerable Sharadvatiputra. “Shariputra, any son of the lineage or daughter of the lineage who wishes to practice the activity of the profound perfection of wisdom (dzogchen, completion stage) should look upon it like this, correctly and repeatedly beholding those five aggregates also as empty of inherent nature.”
Aggregates, heaps, skandhas, piles, clumps. To discuss the aggregates, many people see them as linear, however, they are not. They are not spherical or circular either. They are like a web. Can you see this? It’s a really good pattern. Is that visible to those at home?
Pepijn: No, cuz it just went off because the connection breaks and I have to start it again.
LL: They’re all each interconnected with each other. Perception is a good place to start. How do you see the world? How do you perceive the world? Look at something with your eyes. Touch something with your fingertips. Smell something (smells armpit)
[Laughter]Taste something.
Feel how you do this. You have a sensation, but it is not alone. In the moment of the sensation arising, there is an interpretation of the sensation that occurs. This is often called the ignorance which accompanies each perception. The moment I see something or touch something, I think of “what is it?” Water, wood. This thought is almost, is so together with me feeling the sensation, that I can’t even separate out the sensation and the name of what I’m feeling. And this is happening by karma. What you sense and what you name it.
This. What do you see? Hello?
Group: Bottle of water
LL: A bottle of water. If you had the karma to be a god, a thlah, a worldly god at this time. You would not perceive a bottle of water. You would perceive a gorgeous pitcher of glass full of amrita, not a plastic water bottle. What makes it a plastic water bottle? You have seen plastic water bottles before. You associate the visual sensation with all of your past experiences and so, you interpret this as a bottle of water. A god interprets it as a carafe of amrita, and a hungry ghost, the same object, seeing it, sees a puddle of sludge. So what happens? Once you have done or experienced a perception. Not even experienced, let’s say once a perception arises, which is a sensation with a name. Sensation and interpretation together make up perception. And you can’t get em apart. Close your eyes and then turn your head and open your eyes. Everything you see, you see it together with an interpretation. That’s a perception. Perception leads to feeling “I like it” or “I don’t like it”. It also leads to more thoughts that go with the feeling of why I like it or don’t like. “It’ too hot, it’s too cold, it’s too salty, it’s too sour”. So here you have a sensation embroidered with a name, tangled up in a liking, disliking, or ignoring (not relevant to me, I don’t have to pay attention to this). Which is why, when you walked in here you have no idea what’s hanging on that post on the other side. You can’t see it now. Because you saw it, you have the visual sensation, your interpretation occurred simultaneously, “oh it’s just some stuff hanging there”. And your feeling of “irrelevant to me” occurred so you didn’t retain that. If it had been a demon or a god, a monster, something relevant to you, that might eat you, or a chocolate cake, something relevant to you that you might eat, you would’ve retained that. Cuz you had desire or aversion rather than “it doesn’t matter”.
These three feelings, desire, aversion, ignorance, get tangled up with a story, thought, assessment, form (what it is, where it came from) and volition (what you’re gonna do with it). All of this arises consciousness. You can’t be conscious without an object of awareness in our normal day-to-day consciousness. So there you have a thing that you’ve just made up. You had a sensation and you turned it into a whole thing with a story and a history by making it up. And you have feelings about what you made up about it. And you think you’re separate from it so you’re going to do something about it ‘cause it’s not quite perfect. You’re gonna move it a few inches. You’re gonna fix it. You’re creating more karma, you’re maintaining your individuality consciousness in this way. See how we do this? Every one of us? Create the universe we inhabit.
So these are the five skandhas we’re talking about. The automatic occurrences of being alive and interacting with phenomena. Being a phenomena our selves. The interconnected, interpenetrated-ness of phenomena and consciousness. This is how we do that. We create form. Name it. Believe in it. Think its’ real. Act on it. Try to change it. Constantly surrounding ourselves with all sorts of karmic creations, realities, belief systems which we then trip over. Hopes, fears. “I want, I don’t want”. Form is emptiness. Form is made out of this. You made it up. You create it with your mind as your mind. You create yourself, You create the form that yourself perceives. You create the separation out of the innate emptiness of phenomena.
“Form is emptiness. Emptiness is form. Emptiness is not other than form; form is also not other than emptiness. In the same way, feeling, discriminations, compositional factors, and consciousness are empty.”
All these skandhas, this occurrence, it’s not a thing. It’s piles stuck together, moving. There is no solidity in your reality perception. Notice how you create your world by your belief systems.
“Shariputra, likewise, all phenomena are emptiness; without characteristic; unproduced, unceased; stainless, not without stain; not deficient, not fulfilled.
“Shariputra, therefore, in emptiness there is no form, no feeling, no discrimination, no compositional factors, no consciousness; no eye, no ear, no nose, no tongue, no body, no mind; no visual form, no sound, no odor, no taste, no object of touch, and no phenomenon. There is no eye element and so on up to and including no mind element, and no mental consciousness element. There is no ignorance, no extinction of ignorance, and so on up to and including no aging and death and no extinction of aging and death. Similarly, there is no suffering, origination, cessation, and path. There is no exalted wisdom, no attainment, and also no nonattainment.
This is dzogchen. Is it not? Those of you who have studied it for some time?
“Shariputra, therefore, because there is no attainment, bodhisattvas rely on and dwell in the perfection of wisdom, the mind without obstruction and without fear. Having completely passed beyond error, they reach the end-point of nirvana. All buddhas who dwell in the three times also manifestly, completely awaken to the unsurpassable, perfect, complete enlightenment in reliance on the perfection of wisdom. Therefore, the mantra of the perfection of wisdom, the mantra of great knowledge, the unsurpassed mantra, the mantra equal to the unequaled, the mantra that thoroughly pacifies all suffering, should be known as truth, since it is not false.
TADYATHA [OM] GATE GATE PARAGATE PARASAMGATE BODHI SOHA
So it is that. Gone, gone beyond, gone beyond the beyond. So be it.”
Not someday, not “you’re gonna be good enough to get there some when”. Right NOW. In every now. In all the infinite simultaneous nows of each moment.
“Shariputra, the bodhisattva mahasattva should train in the profound perfection of wisdom like this.”
Then the Bhagavan arose from that concentration and commended the bodhisattva mahasattva arya Avalokiteshvara saying: “Well said, son of the lineage, it is like that. It is exactly like that; one should practice the profound perfection of wisdom (paramita of wisdom) just as you have indicated; and even the tathagatas (the gone beyond ones) shall rejoice.”
From just this, it may be that one fully understands. But if that does not occur, the buddha and the great siddhas in their great wisdom, have given us methods to assist us in coming to directly perceive the gone beyond wisdom, which is not an attainment, which is not somewhen, which is not out there someplace that you have to chase after and scrabble towards. Which is there underneath each moment you experience. it is the underlying innate awareness, kadakh, primordially pure, utterly unfuckupable, that permeates each moment of awareness. it is that very awareness which is experiencing the moments. You don’t have to go and get it, it’s right there. Right here, right now, at all times, and on all occasions. The text that we among the Nyingmas consider the root text, the basic text for the teaching of Dzogchen is The 3 Words that strike the heart. The 3 words that go to the heart of the matter, by the teacher Garab Dorje. He is also, and it is thought by many scholars that it’s the same person, a member of the Bön lineage. So he is within the Bön lineage tree. And the founder of the dzogchen lineage of the nyingmas among humans. The Bon lineage tree starts with the buddha before this one. Tongpa Miwo?
O: Sherab
LL: Tongpa Sherab. (I’m not well trained in Bon). And continues by the 3rd member it begins to reach homo sapiens. Starts with a Lha as the 1st holder and then a Lhu. Goes through many people. Goes through Garab Dorje and descends on. And yet Garab Dorje – according to his story – received it from Vajrasattva. Sambhogakaya nature of mind. But look at how your perceptions and your stories arise. You think history’s any different? All the stories, all the histories. It’s not like there is one real reality that you can eventually figure out which one it is. There’s no one here among us who knows what’s real from what is not. As my first teacher, Lama Thubten Yeshe used to say of the debate about whether or not there was a real relative reality somewhere, “the nature of any such thing as a real relative reality is such that no one can perceive it. No one ever has, except perhaps buddhas, perceived a real relative reality, and no one ever can. We only perceive our take on reality, our limited point of view. Since no one can perceive it, who cares if its’ there or not?” End of debate. He was a pretty good teacher.
So in this text, (excuse me while I make a minor adjustment of the legs… that’s better).
It begins with homage to the master. Please understand that guru yoga, which is not separate from bodhichitta, is the heart of Dzogchen practice. This is because Dzogchen cannot be shown in words. Words can be used as a carrier wave, to assist a teacher in directing your attention. But because the essence of dzogchen is inconceivable it can only truly be communicate telepathically. Words won’t do it. in order to receive that transmission. You have to be able to open your heart, or it won’t go in. If you’re too afraid that somebody’s gonna poke you or something, it won’t go in.
So guru yoga, which is trusting someone enough to let them in on that level, is really important. Guru yoga is a very complex thing for westerners to understand. Because it is not in our culture and yet, without it the transmission is less likely. Very rare. If you cannot have guru yoga to a living, walking, talking human being who, you know, is kinda weird in their own way, then pick an archetype such as Vajrasattva, such as Guru Rinpoche, such as Tsongkhapa, such as the 3rd Karmapa, and visualize them.
When I started this teaching, the first thing I did was call on all buddhas of the 4 times through the lineages, for the transmission to pass here and out. Not because I can do something scary, remarkable, amazing. But because I’m willing to stand here and let that happen, because I trust them. Because I trust my root teacher Wangdor Rimpoche and the lineage which came to him unbroken from person to person from Garab Dorje on down. He received these teachings from a number of teachers. Among them, Khunu Lama from Khenor, Thuksey Rimpoche in Mahamudra, Zigar Rinpoche (the previous, not the one who’s down at the statue at the moment), and many, many others.
Lineage is vitally important. In the west we have a habit of making up new stuff, cause we really like new stuff and then spreading it around in seminars. Mindfulness, anybody? Mindfulness is a tool in the original. But, it seems to help some people. Ok.
My feeling is that you need the old lineage and you need the transmission through the lineage from person to person, living person to living person, in order to be able to really trust it enough to let go and look. And it doesn’t mean the personality of the transmitter needs to be perfect. No! I don’t wanna! You’ll never catch me trying to be perfect. It’s itchy like a girdle.
Fortunately, my personality is irrelevant for this. This is why the first line of this and every text is homage to the teacher, not this personality. I’m just standing in for something. All the lineage back through time, to Vajrasattva, to primordial great mother ocean of dharmakaya itself, inseparable from all life in the universe.
The view is longchen rabjam, infinite vast expanse, and here you better learn a new word. Tawa. You see when we use the word view, we think of like looking out a window. We’re here and there’s a view out there. Tawa is not that kind of view. Tawa is a perception experience. But it’s not out there other than you. It’s not inside your body or outside your body. Tawa is the seeing of your own innate mind. And it is vitally important for this. Gom khense oser ng. The meditation is rays of illuminated love.
Remember that mani practice I taught you all where your heart blooms into elongated rays? Those rays of love symbolize/are (the difference between symbolize and “is” is not really a difference here) the innate aliveness of the universe. The view is infinite vast openness and that openness is not just a big dead ol’ nothing. it’s alive, vital, luminous, lucid. [reads tibetan]
The action is the spontaneous manifestation of Bodhichitta. It is what is automatically arising. Automatically dissolving as the dance of wisdom. It is the shimmer and the sparkle of the inherent luminous clarity of infinite open awareness. It’s what’s looking out from your own eyes in this very moment. Gaze into your own eyes, metaphorically speaking, to see it. To one who practices in this way, the certainty of enlightenment in this very life. But even if not, great joy and happiness, A la la!
As or the view, to introduce you directly to the face of awareness itself, understand awareness, we say Rigpa. Literally the see-er. Look out from behind your own eyes. Without the “at” you’re looking at. Without the individuality of the look-er. Just the looking, that’s rigpa. Can you feel it? You are rigpa. Awareness. The view, tawa, is when rigpa centers into itself.
Right now, when we are looking out from our eyes, we see stuff. With all the arising of the five skandhas involved in the seeing of stuff. The stories about the stuff, the thoughts, the reality we’re creating, do we like it or not? That bilblah, that tangle of crap. Take that away, but the see-er is still there seeing itself. That’s the view. But to understand it is futile! It needs to go past being an understanding, into being a feeling, past being a feeling, into being a perception, and past being a perception into being an isness-of-course. So let’s look at the first couple of steps involved in getting there.
Many of us are visual. So let’s visualize an image. How about an umbrella. Can you arise the picture of an umbrella in your mind’s eye? By definition your mind’s eye is part of your mind, right? So using the tool of imagination, you’re going to arise the picture of an umbrella in your mind’s eye in your mind. The idea of this is to find your mind spatially. This is easy to do if you arise a picture, ‘cause then you have something to look for that is seemingly specific.
So that picture of an umbrella, where is it? It’s too big to fit between your ears. Where is it? Try with your channels in proper alignment, cuz that makes it ever so much easier, to find your mind with your mind. You can change your picture to something else. But where is it?
[silent meditation]In the seeking the picture with your attention, not with your intellect. Feel around for it. Your intellect is a screwdriver. Ever try to get a bolt loose with a screwdriver? You just bark your knuckles. It doesn’t’ work. Put down the screwdriver of intellect. Stop trying to think about where the picture is happening. Feel around for it. This will be easiest if you follow the previously given instructions for relaxing the muscles that control the lens of your eyeball taking off your glasses to make it easier (glasses wearers, you have an advantage). .
Where’s your mind? Find your mind with your mind. Some people do better to imagine the sensation of touch. And find where the sensation is, since it’s done with the imagination and the imagination is part of the mind. It is obviously the mind.
Relax. Relax your mind. If you do this pointing like a bird dog, it won’t go there.
Relaaaaax. Without being distracted, following different ideas. Without concentrating intensely. Without thinking about it and trying to figure it out with your intellect. Rest evenly, mind-mind looking. Longchen Rabjam. Infinitely open. Even the very idea of center or edge cannot apply to this. Vast, indescribable. As far as your imagination extends, your mind extends. This infinite openness, Longchen Rabjam, infinite vast expanse.
Rest here. And suddenly, while resting in this clear and even state. Suddenly let out a mind-shattering “Phat!“. Fiercely, forcefully, and suddenly, Emaho!
And in that moment of breaking your concentration on the mind-made perception of infinite open awareness; when you pop that perception, what is left? Before you build up an edifice around it, before you throw the cloak of belief systems over it. In that very moment of nakedness, there is no “thing” there. That’s tawa.
In the beginning, as you begin to perceive tawa, you will perceive the subtle idea of tawa. You will perceive tawa. Now we all know that perceptions are changeable. It’s not the real tawa. It’s an overlay, a simulacrum, a similarity but not the real thing. But the real thing is right behind it; cuz you’re going in the right direction you’re just having a meditative experience of tawa. And you know damn well, experiences come and go. Tawa doesn’t. Not the real one. so when you have a clear, luminous, vital experience of mind, and it had a beginning means it’s gonna have an end. It’s a come-and-go.
Pop it. break it. Phat!
You are using the letters of method and wisdom combined. Pa, which is similar in English to the -er suffix (doer, doing), is a letter of method. Tra, is a letter of wisdom. When you bring them together they spell phat. Give one a try, I wanna hear you all do it.
[audience tries]Now remember when you use this, if you make the noise and you’re not looking at that moment, when you make that sound, directly at your experience of nature of mind, all you’re gonna do is startle your fleas.
[laughter]That’s a quote from Wangdor Rimpoche. But it’s true. There’s two parts to this practice of breaking the nyam, the experience. Experiences come and go. You want real naked awareness, not the experiential overlay of the experience of naked awareness, which you can’t keep. It comes and goes; it gets away, it ends.
So you gotta pop it while staring at it, cuz you’ve only got a moment there. And if you’re not looking, you’re gonna miss it. And right behind it is the real thing. Now don’t grab it. Don’t try to stabilize it, don’t try to hang onto it. Recognize it as your own true nature and relax. It’s there whether you’re lookin’ at it or not. No sweat. Relax. It’s you, it’s the look-er. Your own mind. The one that’s looking out from behind your own eyes. That’s all it is. And it’s always there. Doesn’t come and go. You can’t lose it; you don’t have to gain it.
Fiercefully, forcefully, and abrupt. That’s the way. You gotta sort of sneak up on yourself with this phat. Phat is used in other practices such as chöd, other things, you know, “phaaaaat” [soft, long] won’t work. Not for this. It’s gotta be fierce. It’s gotta be sudden. It’s gotta thwap. And in that moment that you pop the experience of open awareness; there’s nothing there. transfixed in the wonder of no thing.
Struck by the wonder of it, yet it is all transparent and clear.
Fresh, pure, sudden, undescribable, ungraspable. This is the pure awareness of the dharmakaya. This doesn’t come and go. This is not part of the time space continuum. This is not separate from the time-space continuum. This does not exist in a now or a then. This is you. Who you really are. The totality of your own nature. This is tawa.
The first vital point is to recognize tawa. Don’t grab it. Don’t try to maintain it. Don’t do anything to it. Every time you try to mess with it, what you’re messin with is some kind of thingy, and tawa’s not a thingy. So if you feel to mess with it, it’s not it. It is the mess-er.
Are there questions on the first word, tawa?
Student: so the one which looks from, at least in my experience, the one that looks through my eyes, that feels trapped inside my body and head, especially, is this the one that manipulates or tries to grab or tries to hang on…
LL: This is a very limited perception of the one that tries to hang on. You have the experience of being trapped inside your head.
Student: True.
LL: therefore, in seeking an antidote to that. In seeking where is the perceiver, is to visualize something a lot bigger than your head. Such as a lake, or even the ocean with you in a little boat in the middle of it, and it’s all around you. And then try to find where that is. Continue doing this as the inner mind rushen (which, for further information can be found in the text Yeshe Lama) until there is a really clear feeling, perception, of a vastness, of being a vastness. Not of being in a little bitty head and seeing a vastness out there, but of being that vastness. Once that happens, that’s what you pop. Because that experience of being a vastness is an experience. And we have to get past experiencing, experiencer, experienced, all that stuff. So that’s why you don’t pop anything until that happens. A lot of sitting there looking. Usually this first stage – usually I would break here and we would come back in a month or two, having spent the first month looking and popping, looking and popping. Looking, thinking we found something and popping it. But because of the time constraints of you all visiting here, we’re going to be going a little faster.
Shall we take a break for about 5 minutes? and then we’ll go on.
So feel free to stand up. Don’t wait for me. I’m very slow at standing up at the moment.
Part 2 - Transcription
Recognizing your own true nature is the first vital point. Since both meditation and Sopa, action (kinda, sorta) are contained in that; without that, the rest doesn’t work. So, spend your time on allowing your attention to open enough.
You see, usually, we walk around with our attention in point focus. I look at this’s and that’s and do the whole arising of my thoughts and feelings and telling myself stories about the this’s and that’s and my attention is on phenomena. ON objects, on my feelings about the objects, on my stories about the objects. Inner and outer phenomena. Thoughts, feelings, perceptions. And all the time, as I have the experience of moving through time, very linearly, from the past moment to this moment to the next movement to the next movement, to the next moment. It feels like beads on a string. that’s not real. That is a perception, a story, a made up thing.
All of these single-pointed focuses, single-pointed focuses, single-pointed focuses that we do are counter-productive. They are narrow, they are constricted, and they are limiting. The whole point here in tawa is to learn to open your attention to infinity. I taught you a very simple tsa lung practice the other day, of stretching your channels. It helps. I taught you how to do Manis, opening your heart and feeling the interconnectedness in the form of symbolic light rays, of the entire vast universe across all time, space, and dimensions.
Our attention follows our eyeballs. Wherever you look, you pay attention. We’ve very visually oriented. In order for you to be able to open your attention to infinity, you need to be able to relax your eyeballs. Don’t forget that piece. Glasses wearers have the great advantage of being able to take their glasses off. Which they can use as a mnemonic to remind themselves, “ok, I’m taking my glasses off, I’m relaxing my eyeballs”.
With the eyeballs relaxed, 360 degrees in all directions. Open awareness. Infinitely vast. As far as your imagination extends, your mind extends. This infinite open awareness, not point focused in any way; this is without limit, centre, or edge. This is often referred to as Dharmakaya nature of mind. Those of you who are making retreat, this is your session. To align your channels and sit in a proper position, take a deep breath in through your nose and blow it out through your mouth. [demonstrates] Relax. Relax your eyeballs, relax your mind. Put your thinking in neutral gear. The words of Guru Rinpoche: “Shunt aside the sluice gates of your water wheel.” Put it in neutral. Allow thoughts to be but do not follow them, do not connect them to each other, leave them be as they are without grabbing or rejecting.
Infinite, open, vast, indescribable.
This is not outside of you somewhere. You are not a limited little tiny thing called a personality in there looking out. This is you. Your own mind. Instead of looking at tawa, allow yourself to identify with the experience of tawa. Y’are tawa.
On your cushion, relax as tawa. Do not fight with the thoughts that come. Do not be distracted by them either. Don’t attempt to stop the thoughts or hold anything moving still. Don’t follow the thoughts, engage with the thoughts, talk to yourself about the thoughts. Let go. Leave it be as it is. And if, while sitting on your cushion and doing this, a meditative experience of bliss, of clarity, of bright light, of anything whatsoever. Of emptiness, of vastness, should arise? Stick a pin in it. Pop it with Phat!
Get over the experience, which comes and goes. Behind the experience, indescribable no thing at all. And this is you. This is not outside of you. This is the session while sitting. But don’t stop when you get up. At all times, and on all occasions, recognize the already known dharmakaya nature of mind – Tawa. This means while taking a piss, making your food, going to sleep. Again and again, without grabbing or attempting to make something moving hold still, check and see if your mind’s still there. Often! Lots! Frequently! Would y’all stand up for a moment please?
Walk around a little bit.
[audience walks]
That’s good enough you can sit down again. You didn’t need to walk far.
When you got up, and started walking, how did you do that? How do you walk? You stick a foot in front of you, you lean forwards and gravity brings the foot down. Every step you take you are completely depending on gravity to move in that way. How many of you were thinking about gravity while walking? That’s certainty.
Have any of you while we’ve been sitting here worried about drifting off into the sky and accidentally, you know, falling to the moon or bumping your head on the ceiling? Have you had these fears? Why not? You’re sure of gravity aren’t you? How the hell did you get that sure?
Remember sitting in the high chair holding things out and letting go? Again and again and again. Your mama will tell you about it. Remember trying to walk in the beginning and not having the hang of it and going flat again and again, falling down again and again until after a while, you got so sure of gravity that every move you make is completely dependent.
When you pick something up, take a sip, and put it down, you’re assuming gravity. It stays. Gravity. You don’t worry if it’s gonna stay or not, cuz you’re sure of gravity. This is an analogy. That’s how sure you have to get of Dharmakaya nature of mind , of your own true nature. And you’re gonna get that way, get that sure, in the same way, by again and again and again, under all sorts of different circumstances, checking to see if it’s still there.
So not just on your cushion. While walking and talking, while eating and sleeping, again and again, until the certainty is automatic. Especially check while having strong emotions of anger, fear, joy, or sorrow. Especially check while in turmoil or difficult situations. the more intense the circumstances you look through to check, the deeper the noticing can be. If you can manage to look through that. That’s why I like roller coasters. They’re great places to meditate.
Recognize the dharmakaya nature of mind – your own true nature – again and again and again, not just while you’re sitting there. Let mother and child luminosity unite. That’s a poetic way of saying mother luminosity of ground – the infinite open awareness which has alway been there and always will, the nature of the lineage, Kuntuzangpo, all buddhas of the four times.
Child luminosity of path: the methods given to you by your teacher that allows you to perceive this. When they come together it transcends perception. It’s no longer “your” tawa, “your” true nature. It’s the true nature of all buddhas of the four times, among which you always have been.
What do you think all buddhas of the four times are made of? All sentient beings of the three realms! It’s the same thing! You can’t love your lineage and all buddhas, kuntuzangpo unless you love sentient beings because they’re the same thing.
Beyond time and space there is no differentiation between sentient beings and buddhas. That differentiation is mind-made stuff. Phenomena, thoughts, feelings, perceptions , you made it up. It’s not real. The bug that bites you, the teacher who teaches you, all life. All life in the universe that shares sambhogakaya nature of mind, the innate vitality which is life; which is the natural state of this infinite vast open awareness, it’s clear light nature, it’s luminosity. And all this made-up stuff, mind stuff, It’s just the sparkle of that light, it’s shimmer, the clear light nature. Open awareness, lucid and luminosity. Arising as its shimmering, sparkling, phenomena, creativity, manifestation.
Whatever you feel, recognize the feeler, not separate from the feeling, don’t reject the feeling. Recognize the inherent open awareness in which the feeling is arising. Whatever you think, recognize the infinite open awareness in which the thought is arising. All momentary thoughts, each and every one of them, upon recognition, they leave no trace behind. Look at them as they arise – thoughts, feelings, perceptions – every last one of them. As they happen, while you are resting in open awareness in all its infinite luminous brilliant clear light nature, shimmering with thoughts and feelings, not separate from it, arising in emptiness, as emptiness and dissolving in that – look at it go! Don’t poke it. Don’t try to stop feeling or thinking. It is the nature of aliveness to do this.
Don’t judge your thoughts and feelings – “that’s a good one, that’s a bad one, that’s a good one, that’s a bad one”, grab, shove, grab, shove. Cut it out! Find the tawa in which the feelings arise, the thoughts arise, and watch them arise and dissolve until you notice that like writing on water, there is no residue left behind.
There is an action involved in meditation in Dzogchen, and it’s one of the most important doings, you gotta decide to do it. If’n you don’t, it won’t work! You’ll be sometimes doing it, sometimes not doing it, maybe kinda sorta, maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow. You gotta decide to do it all the time. It’s not a doing, It’s a not doing. But it will feel like a doing until it manages to transform into the direct awareness of not doing, so you decide to do it and then you find the not doing of it. Did that make any sense to anybody?
Audience: mmm-hmm
Whatever’s going on for you, whether you’re in a sort of a shiné type trance, or your really pissed off. Find the tawa in which that is happening. See the tawa without trying to stop the happening. Watch it happen. The more powerful the happening that you can watch happen and dissolve, the more powerful this will be. So don’t try to make everything “Om Shanti” (chants), it’s gonna be fake anyway, you can’t do it. So let’s not fake that, ok?
[moves table]I’m having leg troubles. Even those things that seem like of benefit, such as love, peace, stillness, bliss. Did it have a beginning? Pop it. Behind it , beyond the beyond, GATE GATE PARAGATE PARASAMGATE BODHI SOHADon’t start making a decision in your practice between session and session break. You’re gonna do this 24/7 if you’re gonna do it. If you’re in dzogchen retreat here, if you’ve come to do that, then that’s what you’re doing.
If you’re in a different retreat here, fine. But splice this in a bit during your breaks. Add it into your session. If you’re doing a sadhana? Whatever sadhana you maybe currently doing, all sadhanas have tawa in them. When all the forms and the lights have receded into the seed syllable and dissolved into emptiness, that emptiness is tawa. So even if you are choosing to make a sadhana retreat, as I know some of you are, don’t just gloss over that for like 2 seconds and then you’re done. Sit in tawa there. That’s as important as all the lights that came and went and the colors and the syllables and the things that went round and made noise. That’s where they’re all pointing symbolically. Sit there for as long as you can. And that infinite open empty awareness, when you’re up and going about, making your food, going to town, buying your vegetables, dealing with this, doing that, check and see if it’s still there frequently. Do you understand these instructions?
It is incredibly helpful to have left your home and family, to practice this. Cuz it’s hard to do it in the middle of kids and wives and families and all the blah blah blah. They’re very distracting, haven’t you noticed?
So getting away to make retreat is important, highly encouraged.
This place, Tso Pema, this mountain, Lotus Mountain, Guru Rinpoche mountain, this is né, a power point. All practices done in the né (and there are other nés) a bunch of them around the middle east. You’ll find them. Usually people know about them and have put some story in the local religion about why this place is a power point, some mountain or something. Yes, it’s a powerpoint. Good place to go practice off alone. Any questions about how to practice this?
LL: Yes
Student: When you say I get out of, like sitting practicing into my daily life, and look for tawa, or –
LL: If you’ve managed to do that well while sitting, you won’t have to, you’ll just be able to unfocus your eyeballs and there it is.
Student: so it’s by practice.
LL: Yes, by practice.
Student: Ok. So, I will just know it.
LL: SO, in the beginning, more sessions, less going about.
Student: Ok.
LL: Until you really can just … “there it was”. That’s not gonna happen until you’ve done it alot. It gets easier and faster with practice. Like riding a bicycle or anything else you’ve ever learned to do.
Student: right. And I do it like, frequently, the sitting. I divide it frequently during the day and night? Not just like solid sessions?
LL: Make sure you get enough sleep for your health. No not solid. You want to not sit longer than you can. Whether that has a physical reason or an emotional reason “I’m just having fantasies about lunch”, better get up and make lunch. “I’m falling asleep” get up and walk outside. Let the wind blow through your ears. So really, many short sessions with a little bit of walking around or doing one thing in between.
I’ll often make a short session then I’ll get up and wash a couple of dishes, make a short session… I never sleep in my cave, but put down some cat food, make a short session and I’ve been doing this for years and I still find shorter sessions more conducive. Especially when I have a head cold, I tend to doze off.
So you’re gonna figure out, for each one of you how long your sessions are. It’s not the same for everyone of you. So you make your sessions. You take your little breaks in between sessions and then you make your sessions and your pattern is before dawn, is the sessions and then you’ve got breakfast. Some of you also are doing mantra and taking refuge. Always take refuge and arise bodhichitta at the beginning of each session. It will make it easier. It is part of it. This is what you’re taking refuge in. Tawa, gompa, sopa. Dharmakaya, samboghakay, nirmanakaya. Chuku Longku Trulku, if anybody received what I sent out. And do share that out with each other. Who got the refuge prayer? Ok, so everybody bug them to get copies if you want it.
Does that answer your question? Other questions? Cuz a lot of you here are going into retreat to do this. Yes?
Student: I don’t get it or something because you say, “picture an image”, right? For example, a boat or an umbrella and then you ask “where does it come from?”
LL: Mmm-hmm
Student: What I understand from your [unintelligible] is that you also check your… [gestures to head]
LL: you can.
Student: yeah, ok.
LL: If it feels like it’s in your head then visualize something that could not possibly fit in your head.
Student: well the thing I do automatically is I make a boat very small but it fits in my head
LL: but don’t. Leave it big and then look
Student: [laughing] ok, i’ll try.
LL: We’re very tricky for ourselves. Cuz there’s a part of us that doesn’t want to see reality.
Student: Ok, so then I see the boat. Ok.
LL: It’s a big boat.
Student: A big boat that it doesn’t even fit. Ok. That’s gonna take some time to… but then I ask “where is it?” and I go to my body?
LL: Maybe, or maybe you first you just feel around for it. You don’t have to do anything specifically other than feel around for it.
Student: Just feel. ok so then I skip the body then, cuz when I’m in the body, I notice that for example when I focus attention here… to grab it. You know? It’s like [gestures]
LL: mmhmm. So maybe you don’t want to bother with the body. It’s up to you. I was letting you do the body cuz you had a past experience of paying attention to the body and you wanted something similar.
Student: not that I wanted something similar, specifically, but I noticed if I go to my body, it’s different, it’s like I”m getting a lesson in what’s not the mind.
LL: yes. Once you’ve got that lesson then you might look outside of your body.
Student: Look outside of you, but still… can you specify that? Look outside of my body?
LL: No. There is no specific. I’m trying to get you to look in a direction you’ve never looked in before. It’s a direction that has no name. And that you can’t imagine. So how do I trick you into looking there the first time? This is one method. Does that make sense?
Student: I will have to sit again tomorrow and try again.
LL: Yup! Keep trying. At some point, you will perceive, feel, emotionally and almost like, with the sense organ the yi, tactilely with the yi. You will feel a feeling of expansiveness, of openness, of vastness, indescribable. And you won’t be able to find a color or a shape or a location about it. so until that happens, you keep looking for it. and if that is unsuccessful, then i will – after a week or so – i will give you other exercises that are more likely to synergize with this and make it successful.
Student: Yeah, because I feel I’m now stuck in reacting to different objects. I feel a difference if… a golden watch it a different… you know what I mean?
LL: yeah, you’re not getting the point. Ok, maybe we try you on a different take. All the objects come and go, right?
Student: Yeah.
LL: Go find what doesn’t.
Student: Yeah because sometimes I literally [unintelligible]
LL: Go find what doesn’t go.
Student: find what doesn’t go. ok.
LL: Ok? What does not move, what does not go. Find that. The objects are a method that works for many people, but not all people. Ok?
Student: Something that doesn’t go. Yeah, for me that’s better than… a forest for me doesn’t go.
LL: But it – Yes it does.
Student: Yeah but in my mind, like if it’s an object, a boat that’s handmade for instance, then it just disappears. Cuz it moves.
LL: Yes, go find what doesn’t.
Student: yeah, what doesn’t move. The forest doesn’t move.
LL: No, the forest moves.
Student: Yeah, but it doesn’t like a boat.
LL: but it does, because the world is turning, it’s moving through space.
Student: Ok. Yeah.
LL: go find what doesn’t move. Does not move at all. Never mind for you, what really doesn’t move. ok? Try it that way.
Other questions? Yes?
Student: [unclear] What do I do with the vertigo?
LL: With the what?
Student: Vertigo? It’s like a feeling of…
LL: Vertigo. Don’t mind it. It’s a sensation.
Student: [unclear]
LL: But you’re not going to hurt yourself, you’re sitting down. Even if you fall over it’s ok. right? So? Don’t worry about it. Vertigo is simply another one of those experiences. So that’s a nyam. Hit it with Phat. What was behind it? It’s the way your mind is making a distraction to avoid from actually seeing what is. And oh boy have I come up with some doozies. I remember the year i could think of nothing but sex. We’re very creative to not do this practice. Amazingly creative to pretend to do this practice and not do this practice; but don’t trick yourself, don’t fall for it. You know your own mind. And vertigo is one of your nyams. Someone else gets bliss and they don’t wanna stop. Somebody else gets clarity and wisdom and they’ve like “Oh I’ve got it now and I’m keeping it!” So, we’ve all got the way we trick ourselves and you just “phat!” Pop it with Phat and wait for the next thing. Ok?
Other questions. Yes.
Student: What is the relation between the channels and the mind? [unclear]
LL: The channels. Tsa, lung, tigle, le chapsu chiwo. The channels… hmmm… The channels encompass tawa. The channels encompass dharmakaya. They are vaster than you know. They are not the limitation you’re familiar with. In rainbow body, when the channels are expanded through tögel, full rainbow body, or through trekchö which is this practice of dzogchen, lesser rainbow body. When they are allowed to expand past the homo sapian pattern that they are currently holding, into the totality of the potential of themselves, in all 9 dimensions. Dharmakaya is the channels. Infinite open, empty. No thingness, not solid. Not constructed of the elements. The chi that rides in the channels is the life force of the universe, sambhogakaya. And tigle, the creativity of the nirmanakaya, of phenomena arising as emptiness and dissolving as emptiness. The third word, sopa. Does this answer your question? You find this in the refuge prayer I sent out. The tsa, lung, tigle, le chapsu chiwo aspect. Other questions?
Student: The other day in your cave you said there is some mantra or archetype that goes with this kind of practice that cuts through the illusion of a “me”, if I understood right.
LL: There are some.
Student: Could that help in this practice if we do the mantra like before?
LL: Not for you at this time. Will you come again and see me next year? That might be time to give you that.
Student: Ok.
LL: I would have to arrange for someone who has the initiation text of a yidam for you.
Student: right
LL: and that needs to be done with a wang and i have to find out who’s got phurba, vajrakilaya wang. I mean, I can give the wang but i have to find the text and I sure don’t have it so it’s a hunt. So it’s not gonna happen this year.
Student: Ok, so i do now the Guru mantra and….
LL: or you can do gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi soha, which I taught you today.
Student: Right. Do it before the practice like this.
LL: Yes, it’s very powerful and it cuts through all of it, from the Heart sutra. It’s one of my favorites. There are many, many things but the idea is not to learn all of them right away. The idea is gonna be, learn a few and really work intensely with those ones until you got em. Not perfectly, but they’ve done their thing with you. At least to the extent that now we’re looking at what additional practice is going to synergize with that. You may end up doing some kind of ngöndro or another, or not. You might not need that. Wait and see. Try this for a while first. If it works, then you didn’t need that first. You still may if you want to do tantra, such as a yidam practice as this, need to do some ngöndro, although there are some short forms if you have a very busy life that will allow that. And we’ll talk about that personally; cuz it’s different for everybody here, what form of ngöndro they’re gonna need to do and how extendedly long or short, and whether the rushen counts as it.
Does that answer? Other questions here. Ok almost done for today.
To really decide to go for this is the second vital point. the actual practice of it. Ya’ gotta actually do it. You do it until the doing transforms into an “of course” and it’s not even done and don’t stop there. There’s a point where your session and your not-session make no difference; it’s always there. Don’t stop your sessions. That’s a big oops, we all fall in it there. Don’t fall for it. It wears off. Don’t fall for it until the very end and this is not the end. There is something that occurs in this practice. It is inherent in this practice but you can’t do it on purpose. This is the absolute certainty that arises out of the practice where you cannot think a thought without seeing it’s nature. Can any of you look at a road sign and not read it? You can’t, can you? How’d you get that way?
Student: Practice.
LL: That’s sopa. All the thoughts arise in the mind, in this infinite open awareness, they are made of this infinite open awareness and they have neither substance nor duration. The arising and the vanishing are simultaneous, like writing with your finger on water. They leave no track or residue. They never did. What feels to you like a residue of yesterday’s thoughts are simply today’s thoughts arising on the same topic, talking about yesterday’s thoughts. They are not actually a residue of yesterday’s thoughts. They are new. If you can see sopa as it happens, this releases the PTSDs. But for this to happen, you have to actually perceive each and every thought you think as tawa. Each and every feeling you feel as tawa. And not grab anything. And not shove anything.
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Practice. Tawa arises spontaneously out of gompa, out of the practice, gom, meditation. Gompa: meditation hall. Not monastery, not nunnery, meditation hall, gom pa. Just as the 2nd word of Garab Dorje is gom, meditation. At this point, the way the thoughts and feelings arise is the same as before. The difference is you’re not clutching them and shoving them, cuz you can see their lack of substance, their insubstantiality, in their arising. It’s utterly obvious. So the way they arise is the same as before, but the difference lies in the way they are liberated. It’s not that they were not liberated before and you now liberate them. But rather that you now notice the inherent liberation of each thought in its arising. Without this, meditation just gets you high. Blissful, nyams, shiné, god realm. With this, even non-meditation is dharmakaya. This is the third vital point. Sopa.
Any questions?
Student: Would it be helpful, for example when I go in my day to day life, when I start my meditation, to say that, when I see or perceive anything with my senses to say “this is tawa”?
LL: No, it is not helpful. Because you’re having a thought – a perception, thought – and you’re just plastering another thought on top of it.
Student: it has to be a direct perception.
LL: It’s gotta be a direct perception, not another thought stuck on top. Cuz you’re sticking intangible on intangible and you’re not gonna get anything out of that except more thoughts. For the view which has the 3 vital points, you see gompa and sopa are in tawa. It’s all tawa, it’s all infinite, open awareness. Meditation, the union of wisdom and love, is accompanied by the action common to all Bodhisattvas; were the buddhas of the past, present and future to consider, no instruction would they find greater than this. Brought out as a treasure from the depths of the transcendental insight, by the terton of the dharmakaya, the inner power of rigpa, awareness. Nothing like ordinary treasures of earth and stone, this is. You have money, you spend money, you’re out of money. This is not inexhaustible. Never lost. This is the essence of the wisdom mind of the three transmissions, the three lineages. It is entrusted to my heart students, sealed to be self-secret. It is profound in meaning. Words of the heart. It is the words of the heart’s life force. The words of my heart’s life force.
The crucial key point: Don’t hold it cheap. Don’t try to sell it in the marketplace. Do not allow the instructions to slip away with you. This is the special teaching of the wise and glorious king, Garab Dorje, who taught this from a circular rainbow in the sky to his disciple Jampa Shiney after his death. It is the key of freedom.
If you do not practice it today, you will forget how. If you do not practice it tomorrow, you will forget how. I take no vow from you to practice it every day, I just warn you that if you don’t you’re gonna forget how.
Are there anymore questions on how to do this?
Student: So if there’s like a really strong memory, feeling, passion –
LL:L Yeah those are great!
Student: then it’s like being hit by a huge wave and it like, kind of obliterates and it’s like –
LL: It doesn’t have to.
Student: It’s hard. I don’t know how to… what to do! Or not to do.
LL: Gently lead up to it. Pick something intense, but not that intense.
Student: Or they just come.
LL: Right, but here’s what I’m telling you, is to have other things that come that aren’t as intense. You’ve got different levels of shit that comes.
Student: Yea.
LL: Try to see through the less intense ones and slowly build up, like learning to lift weights. Slowly build up your lifting power until you can see through the really big ones. And do not beat yourself up if you fall off. Ok? That’s important. Everybody falls off. Yes.
Student: Is it ok if I use the Phat also in the [resting part of the inner rushen]?
LL: Yes, but don’t do it out in public. It’s a secret practice. Use it when you’re alone on your cushion. Now what other parts did you want to use it in?
Student: I was asking because I’m doing the voice rushen.
LL: Yes, no. Phat doesn’t go in there.
Student: OK. Separate thing.
LL: Separate. Don’t confuse your practices. If you’re doing the outer speech rushen with all the hungs, then just do that. But after every session, sit, rest, tawa. Other questions?
Student: Where I’m staying is it inappropriate to use a phat?
LL: You could use a phat. You’re in your room and you don’t have to scream it. You can go phat! phat! As long as there’s the forceful expelling of breath and some vocal cord involvement. It doesn’t have to be shouted super loud, and yes, go ahead and use it in the hotel. Inside your room, or if you’re alone on the roof. Other questions? Don’t use it in group practice, guys. You’ll sound like microwave popcorn
[laughter]I think we are done for today. There will be more teachings at different times, as people come and go. Not more than once a week, although I will hold again, open house days for a few people to come up with a few at a time with personal questions. And you guys all sort yourself out so you all fit in my cave for those cuz I’m not gonna scare up the gompa for it. Ok?
[dedication]Recorded by: Faisal Sarhi & Michael Northam
Transcribed by: Tasha Schumann & Sammy Nooney
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